giving HIM up...F O R E V E R

Obsessing over the betrayals is

not the way to mend a broken heart..

it will just keep me in a holding pattern

where I will be having this overwhelming sick feeling

for the rest of my living days...

....it's just too bitter to even move on..

..just too bitter...

He is with someone else, now..

even if he wasn't actually seeing her behind my back,

I can't help but felt as though he was unfaithful

BECAUSE

clearly in his mind, he wanted to be with HER

eventhough he was with me...

Maybe I saw this coming a mile off

because he was showing more affections and concerns towards HER..

..but why HER?

SHE is someone we both knew and he didn't have a thing for HER back then,

but now he does?

Well, it takes maturity to realise that although I can't have something I really want,

that doesn't mean that I will never be happy.

... I can't feel you no more...

And it takes strength of character N O T to idealise the past with someone I once loved

and to see it for what it was - warts and all..............

it's not what he did that dictates the level of pain I feel -

it's what I do now,

...that can prolong or cut short the agony of letting go of HIM..

... the BIGGEST fool ever lived ?? ...

So, there is not going to be any Hollywood or Bollywood ending to our ill-fated romance....

and I am not going to allow myself to look like a fool

because I have been devastated and hurt

by a guy who doesn't seem to have cared all that much

to begin with!?!?!?

I am less bothered now..

I have let go of the past and look ahead to the future..without YOU..

"I'm giving Y O U up...F O R E V E R.."