giving HIM up...F O R E V E R

Obsessing over the betrayals is

not the way to mend a broken heart..

it will just keep me in a holding pattern

where I will be having this overwhelming sick feeling

for the rest of my living days...

....it's just too bitter to even move on..

..just too bitter...

He is with someone else, now..

even if he wasn't actually seeing her behind my back,

I can't help but felt as though he was unfaithful

BECAUSE

clearly in his mind, he wanted to be with HER

eventhough he was with me...

Maybe I saw this coming a mile off

because he was showing more affections and concerns towards HER..

..but why HER?

SHE is someone we both knew and he didn't have a thing for HER back then,

but now he does?

Well, it takes maturity to realise that although I can't have something I really want,

that doesn't mean that I will never be happy.

... I can't feel you no more...

And it takes strength of character N O T to idealise the past with someone I once loved

and to see it for what it was - warts and all..............

it's not what he did that dictates the level of pain I feel -

it's what I do now,

...that can prolong or cut short the agony of letting go of HIM..

... the BIGGEST fool ever lived ?? ...

So, there is not going to be any Hollywood or Bollywood ending to our ill-fated romance....

and I am not going to allow myself to look like a fool

because I have been devastated and hurt

by a guy who doesn't seem to have cared all that much

to begin with!?!?!?

I am less bothered now..

I have let go of the past and look ahead to the future..without YOU..

"I'm giving Y O U up...F O R E V E R.."

to BitCH or not to BEACH??

An innocent kitten with puppy doll eyes and all crossed my path of life recently..So, I took her in...showed her my world, introduce her to my family and friends..treat her well, showed her how to have a blasting time ...and the next thing you know, she CLAWED me in th face!!!

Well, I am obviously gonna smack myself in the head for being used and letting the people around me having at shitty time...SORRY Dee...and especiall you, KIDDO.... I should have trusted you when you said there was something not right about..J. I must really start to pay more attention to what they say -- and most importantly -- how they act.

That'll clue me into W H A T they really A R E, and whether it's worth MY time to hang out with them!!

Well, someone was really trying to WARN us when he [intentionally or unintentionally, for that matter - ahhh, who the heck cares at this moment on..] coolly blurted

"So where do you wanna go...BEACH??"

........and it's supposed to be read as BITCH!!!!!!!!!!

~uNwRittEN tHoUGHts~

whoaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!~ I really, totally forgot about my Blog!! My sincere appologies to you..

It has been so long since I last posted anything here...Now that I finally got myself a laptop (actually, a couple of months ago, to be exact) I can continue to Blog, again... All of the sudden I just wanna pen everything down, but then it would be a bore to the rest... I think it's best to only post HAPPY stuff here..so that each time I see my own Blog... I would giggle out of nothing then let tears fall from the skies, into my eyes...

ahhhhhhhhhh...where do I begin?

So many things had happened.....from good to bad to those that I really wished that I could just sleep on it and forget about....well, shit happens...but only to me!!

Well, to recap...I had loads of fun in the sea, sun and sand....wrestled with the booze bottle till wee hours, puked my lungs out, slept beside the cemetery [don't ask]...trying to out run the rain on the bike, short vacation trip and all the butterflies I have been having since....the stolen kisses epic...

Cool statements :

"Love makes the world goes round…lust makes the world go on..."

"Time is never wasted if you are wasted all the time!!~"

"Talk like GOD, do like COCK!!~"

"Would you spend your day LIKE THIS, if it was your last??"